fitting the puzzle pieces

   I like puzzles. and it seems that my life itself is one.

   maybe that's even true for each of us, all of us.

like this picture from The Game of Heroes http://thegameheroes.com/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=25&t=5607
 



so far i know that the outer world we see

with all the pain and the heartbreak

doesn't have any answers worth knowing.  
and the inner answers aren't easy to come by.
  

one of my answers is Light

 one is Truth  

..... to live truth requires integrity 

and I/we are so far from being and doing that as humans, no matter how we try.


so search then.
further in, 
deeper, 
higher up, 
further out... 
waaay beyond the earth, the solar system, the farthest reaches of this galaxy, out to the edges of infinity.
   as humans our furthest reach is 14.5 billion years out and that's not the end. 
or 11 dimensions ... and that's not yet proven
  ... some of those dimensions being closer than my own skin

then there is 'spooky action at a distance', the Einstein Podalsky Rosen experiment.  
two spin-paired electrons, when infinitely separated still respond as if there were no alteration of space.

  what IS the mind? 
anyone got a 'jar' of mind to show me?   
i can make a jar of colorado sunshine... line the jar with foil, and put on the lid ;) ... 
    course you can't ever look inside to see if it's there or not.  


    humans show mind to others in many ways: words on a page, music, art, dance, sports ... 


 .... and i digress.

the puzzle.  

 life is a puzzle, and for me? can't wholly be solved by looking outside myself.... 
inside myself are only a few more pieces, and answers.


more of the answers are found in that which is greater than myself

  in the Light  


and in the Living Water.

innocence renewed

when you open your walls to love

 more comes in than just healing

 more goes out than just joy

you find within an inviolate place of peace

  there the Living Light has always been ...

what a gift isn't

expectation of anything

 anything

  nothing

  nowhere

    no thing       now here

whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosh!

let it go

  and the breeze takes it, Horus speaking in the winds of healing.

he too was a son of light, on a lesser plane perhaps, but none-the-less born of sacrifice.  it was Horus' father who was slain.  and Horus had to redeem his father, and so became a healer.

  In the Christ, we have the Son as redeemer, in a far greater sense, for all of us.

  it is said, 'for all humanity', but i cannot believe that the God who made the universe in all it's glory wouldn't also love the animals, the plants, the minerals, all the *star stuff* to paraphrase Carl Sagan   Star Stuff, that he put here himself.

  oh... i am so resisting giving the 'lecture'... how can anyone claim the heritage and not love our adopted mother, Gaea ?

  one can love what is earth, what is not God without being pagan, as everything has in it God's touch and love.

& yes, one indeed can think scientifically, logically, even with a Spock-mind and still see the deep magic*

  Even Aslan is powerless before the 'deep magic', the higher law. (C.S. Lewis, the Narnia series)

what Then, IS love ?

i am being called to a greater love
 to live a love that is total acceptance
  and that without clinging

to live my moon poem
 see it breathe it feel it drink it burn it
   and glow it....

without even the knowledge that it will ever every
  be returned to me

Phoenix Alive

 Love is not a falling but a flying... only the heart has wings.

the heart is a phoenix*

rising out of it's own ashes
 reborn

once tears are turned into fuel for the emerald heart

when heavy tears fall

and shatter the heart

it is only the heart's walls that are broken

opening opening opening

    lessens the pain

and helps the tears ignite the flame within

 ... the flame of Joy

 

* phoenix global meanings

permission to be imperfect

The imperfect Crystal


  like the imperfect human

is where real beauty lies.  


a slight inner fracture, healed.... yet the source of rainbows 
  as it glows & shimmers in the light


the tiniest clue to all the beauties hidden within 


seeds of joy sparkling in me 

   
   myself like a crystal growing in the earth's deepest fires

   water and earth air and fire 


  mending itself from within, flowing around the imperfections, until ...

the once flaw now overcome is the miracle  


a source of strength & beauty 

full moon birthday

Taurus Full Moon

Catch the moon in your hands...

... let it go

Catch the moon in the water...

...let it flow

Catch the moon in the air...

...let it fly

Catch the moon in the fire...

...let it glow

Catch the moon in your heart

      let it grow

when senses scramble

i want to see what i hear in my head

i want to hear what i see in my mind

somehow friends do that -
 reach right on through that old wall

and i'm not alone after all.


i'm not alone
and i am not lonely

i have my roots and the wind in my hair

i have the night
the stars shining bright
and the moon

...
i'll be hearing you soon.

visions?

this is the image of myself i just saw during an inner journey.

  only that is not me falling 'down the rabbit hole',

 but me sitting in crystal cave .....

 

the crystal cave is comfortable and well lit.  the colors are different tho'.

i have had these travel journeys before... where i saw myself as a cartoon character....

& i've been this one before too... only this time i remembered more clearly.

i've always gone into this cave to meditate, usually entering from a secret path behind a waterfall...

Rainbow Moon

frosty winter nights and stars.
for many nights the moon has had her own rainbow
 and i have wondered at the colors in the sky

the blue blue ! cobalt blue that sings so deeply in me
a teal like oceans in dreams
  sparkling waters, crystalline waters -
with distant gemstone pyramids

swimming in the stars to touch the rainbow moon

Isis' radiance comes from Ra's fire
 and Horus stirs the windchimes to signal his presence.

each god has two faces - one of day and one of night.
a sphere-being like all of us are. beyond the 3rd dimension into the light.
 radiance of earth, of water, of air, of fire.
  and thus is born the metal of long desire... the true philosopher's stone.

the colors i see here -

other colors - sweden

MattMattsonPhotography  The Moon's Corona

australia ... photo by Rob Studdart distudio@ozemail.com.au